有的时候～

有的时候，我很想闹脾气。。。很想躲起来。。。

但想想，如果妳也是一样在盼我开口说话，如果妳也一样那么惆怅，那我岂不是伤了妳。。。

所以啊，能吞还是自己吞下去吧，别因为自己的自私，做了不该做的事。

就把那闷气出在功课上吧。

功课们，你们等死吧！！！哇哈哈哈

Soul Searching?

Is this soul searching? =3

Perhaps I should shave my head and do some meditation while I'm at it.

I would really look like a Martian...really -.-"

Lalalala~

A Drug Addict Without His Drugs~

Ha~

Cutting off myself from anime/manga/games/messenger/facebook, I realised how empty my life actually is.

I've been indulging in them for so long that I don't even remember when did I start depending on them.

It feels so depressing having to think of what to do now that my drugs are taken away from me =3

Maybe they've been filling quite a large void in me, larger than I could possibly imagined.

Emotions...feelings...they are fearsome indeed...

I feel like I can succumb anytime now, even to the smallest temptation~

Humans~ Foolish beings~ Sinful beings~ ^^

当你觉得你是错误的中心，你会怎样～

怎样 ^^

怎样 。。

怎样 . .

怎样 ; ;

怎样 , ,

怎样......

你

还是能毫无动摇

我行我素

潇洒地往前走吗？

你

能吗？

你

会那样做吗？

你...

Angels, 谢妳们的剑与盾, 这 Synthesis 与 Courage, 我会好好地运用。

我会的...^^

A Bizzare Dream and A Real Nightmare

1st part of a dream

I was at a condominium, seemingly same as the one I used to live in, on 12th floor. There was a robot-like thingy with high intelligence (AI). This AI is fond of me, and very unfriendly towards another certain someone which I fail to determine is who.

Hmm, it's really bizzare...I don't see any significance that I can relate to =P

Maybe I'll end up with a robot as wife? ^^


2nd part of a dream

I started at a high class restaurant, sorta discussing with a rich mother. Funny thing is, she seems to have a child with my family or something, a daughter I think, and that she's trying to discuss a time that she can meet with her (they seem to be on bad terms or that they have been separated for long). Not sure how it changed, but I was suddenly discussing with the father on a balcony.

Suddenly I saw a cyclone far away (somehow near KL Tower). I was shocked as I pointed it out to the father and whoever was with me. Then we continue talking.

Suddenly cyclones started forming near our place, I hurriedly ran into the house towards to basement (Somehow, that building is like my grandfather's house, a 3-storey bungalow with a basement below the ground). I shouted to warn everyone to follow, but somehow, I was the only one inside. When it's over, I went out...

There were bodies stacking near the stairs outside the door...(technically, not bodies, as most of them did stood up alive afterwards, but 'bodies' was the first thought that came into my mind). I was helpless, didn't know what to do. Someone was shouting at a body, trying to wake him/her. Somehow, the stack of bodies started waking up one after another.

Then I saw my sister not far away, sitting on a wheelchair, unconscious. I won't describe the feeling in words, but if you have felt sadness before, I can tell you that it was an extreme one, one enough to make me lose my mind.

I frantically tried to wake her up. And soon, she did wake up. The dream ended after that.

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weird weird dreams.....they're weird, yet they felt so real....

A funny thing was, my sis was smiling when she was unconscious, I thought to myself, maybe it was too sudden that she was knocked unconscious while she was enjoying the scene of the cyclones. >.<

But dear god, please don't take anyone dear to me so suddenly...at least not so fast...The thought is simply unbearable TT