People you love. People who are near you.

I'm not the bookshop boy for PETAKOM =P

Anyway, the topic today is as above.
Have you ever noticed, you tend to have more conflicts with people who are closest to you?

Or, you tend to not treat the one closest to you the way you would treat someone who might not be as close to you =/

When I used to live with my parents, I acted like an asshole =P I seldom help with chores. But when I'm far from them, I feel the urge to hug them and see them. (Not home-sick, please don't be confused, I enjoy it here.)

On the other hand, I would treat my friends much better than how I would have treated my family members. Yes, I was retarded, and probably still am.

I have this roomie that I feel really attached to =)
Or so at first, but our distance is growing apart. Maybe it's just me, we both still smile and laugh at each other, cracking silly jokes. But something's just not right.

The 4 of us forms a small circle in our class, it started with the 3 of them and I joined a little later. But now, one of the 3 is rejecting my roomie because he's paying too much attention to some girls whom he called his mui mui.

He could stay up late or wake up in middle of the night to help them, but neglect his own work. All of us are good people, the girls are my good friends too, no romance involved, or so I think. Maybe he has something on his mind, but I really can't tell if he refuses to open up to us.

Now I'm trying to hold us 4 together, while 2 of them are getting further and further away from each other. I'm an easy-going person, but sometimes I do feel that I ought to know more than I do now. After all, I'm a friend...

Here's a piece of advice, you really ought to voice out more if you want others to know soemthing. Don't take everyone as mind-readers and then blame them for not being able to read you.

Come on, stop testing each other, it's a waste of time. Can't we just do it the easy way? What's wrong with simple, plain, honesty? I try to be honest 90% of the time, in fact, I've been doing it a lot recently. Like the incident yesterday, lol.

My eyes are exhausted, but my heart is feeling heavier than any part of my body. I used to be a loner, but now I have friends.

My friends, please accept this honest feeling of mine. I may be hurting you or being harsh on you most of the time, but you know I don't do it for my personal gain.

I love you. The good part about you, and the bad part about you, if you have any =)
Take care~